I should have opened it before, the blog I mean. Now I really have some hard times trying to arrange all the ideas I had, the websites I visited, the books or movies that people suggested me. Damn habit of not taking notes. What actually triggered the turmoil of voices and hypothesis was the choise to talk about it, and it was a good choise. Usually I keep my big rash thoughts for myself (and usually there is where they stay, in my mind; like that one with the cavy and the plunger, bad story): this time, on the other hand, I felt the urge to confront friends and relatives, maybe I really want to believe this story of me walking up there. The more people I tell it the more the idea become concrete; after the first astonishment (or insult), everyone has something to say. I can discuss with all of them, encouraging or not, about time, money, climate, lodging, food. Like… a real thing, you know. And it also works as a trap for the pride: too many people involved by now, I have to do it! Anyway, between unconditional support and irrevocable rejection the thing got real. It’s there, quiet, it looks around. I can confront it. It also has a blog now, and I need to remember how to write.
In the last two weeks I had to stop the preparation due to the fantastic roundabout of es.terni; now I can resume and time looks so short (by the way, if somone sees a september on the floor: give it back, I lost it). Next moves: finding someone, with a need for contents, newspaper magazine or radio, interested in my adventure and available to give me some visibility that I could offer to a technical sponsor; I will need some high quality clothes and gears to face a wet winter on the road and it’s all expensive stuff. Then: the shoes. I cannot wait anymore for those, I need them now for training and to get them used to my feet, I have to chose rapidly the model and the material. The web does not help a geek like me: the more specialized websites I surf the more I want to buy everything. I wonder what Sigeric thought about Decathlon products.
